write this

I need to get back to working on my novels. I’ve got two, one is halfway through the first draft and the other is just beginning. So i’m going to work out a routine that best fits me.

bookssmookes

I just ordered the following from book depository;

*Amigurumi-Super happy cute crochet
&

*101 one skein wonders

I so

I really need to work through my yarn stash! its starting to take over my bedroom

dream

I will be sending off  my swappee’s green parcel today   I just have to get a few more things, write a little  note and I can send it off!  Yay!  It feels great not to have to worry about uni for a month, I can do whatever I want!  yeah no guilt!

I have come across a facial piercing that I really want.  Unfortunately I can’t get it don, as it would really limit my job prospects, plus I will be starting my placement soon and i’m not going to be allowed to walk around this hospital with it.

I Love it!

http://www.bmezine.com/pierce/11-surface/A90510/high/gqbr-vertical-bridge-aka.jpg

a girl can dream right?

A bit of a knit, a bit of a yarn

Its been a long time since i’ve updated.  Where do I start?  Fingers  crossed I pass my social work subjects so I can attempt my final placement (roll on degree).  I’ve taught myself to knit,  but don’t know what to tackle next?  I really love these http://stitchnsnitch.wordpress.com/2009/02/27/jacobs-knucks/  But in all honesty the only projects that I see that get really enthusiastic about are one’s that are for people who have been knitting for some time.  I don’t want to start on a dishcloth or a scarf :/.  I’m a brat.  So i’ve gone back to crochet until I can attempt something knit wise that will make me smile.

I have been writing a little bit, uni has taken up alot of my time, so my personal writing has fallen by the wayside.  Oh I got a new deck of cards, Flower speaks oracle.  They are so pretty and they go well with my love of gardening.

minimacro post

Its been a while since i’ve updated.  I currently have two university assignments haunting me.  They are both pretty in depth and not just the sort of things you can knock up the night before.  i still haven’t finished mum’s blanket, i think its the thought of the acrylic wool…. i need to get some that feels really soft, in other craft news I did make myself a puffy slouchy hat (pics on my ravely page) and am halfway through making max a doggie sweater from my own design.

In regards to tarot/lenormand I haven’t picked up the lenormand cards for quiet some time, I recently bought the hanson and robertson tarot deck which i’ve also loathed, but found it haunting me.  I’ve found it has quiet a depth to it.

In other news i’ve been feeling very loving lately… My hormones are going haywire.  I think my mind and emotions are readying themselves for another relationship (if and when that happens).  I’m finding it nice, but sometimes its annoying .

Quick Lenormand Flash

All of yesterday throughout the day.  I was playing with my french cartomancy cards by LS.  I didn’t think much of it at the time (Must have been the mind numbing heat) but the ring card kept falling out… it wasn’t till later that night that I twigged.  The cards were trying to get my attention.  So I decided to use the ring as the key card representing myself.

I shuffled the pack, cut it into three piles then shuffled again.  Spread the cards out in a fan and picked four random cards.

Reading

Card 1- Clover.   Card 2-Ring.  Card 3- Crossroads.  Card 4- Moon & Card 5- Letter.

Its never happened to me before whilst using lenormand cards, but I got hit in the face with  a ‘psychic’ sentence representing all cards and summing up the reading.  It felt like a slap across the face.  Basically what I ‘recieved’ was I’ll have great luck concerning a relationship which will take me in a new direction and will help me grow through how we communicate.  When it comes to myself, cards and ‘psychic’ flashes  I am always dubious or sceptical, this is due to the fact that it is so easy for the reader to see what they want to see and not be able to take a step back.

Curious I decided to look at Titania’s book that accompany’s her lenormad deck… I think what stuck out the most for me, is when she says ‘Besides flowers or MOON read a definate invite’  Its funny though when I actually did the reading last night it made complete sense to me , but now I am wondering if it will pan out how I think it will or concerning the person I want it to   We shall soon see.

The universe has been trying to get my attention of late

Umming

I find Tarot and Lenormand so different, yet I can’t actually explain the difference between them.

An Open Letter

I’ve screamed into my pillow, cried till i couldn’t, thrown up and journalled, yet here I am, three months on and your still popping into my mind.  I have this anger that surprises me in unexpected ways, wanting to tell dangerous drivers that are tailing me as i learn to drive to ‘get fucked’.  This anger comes out in short sharp bursts at other people.  When really its you who need to hear the full brunt of it.

You who threw six years of great friendship down the drain and a relationship that could have blossomed, who used me and discarded me as easily as a t.v dinner, you abused not only my trust but my confidence and love.  I would have been happy to have stayed friends, you could have told me you needed your own space and I would have gladley accepted what you wished, instead you faded out of my life in the most horrible way, abusing me and treating me no better than the assholes you never wanted to be.

I’m fuming because I know this is a pattern and you will keep on doing it to women you come across.  I wish you would grow the fuck up and get the help you obviously need.  Thier are obviously issues that are seated deep within your conciousness that you need to work through, but not using women for your own gain and ego would be a start on that process.

I’m angry because I still have all these churning emotions inside of me and I want to let them go.  I wish you a life of happiness  and contentment with whatever you choose to do and I wish the same for myself.

We are obviously on different paths and I gladley would have you continue on alone and still keep the bond of friendship between us.  But you couldn’t handle that and severed it in the most horrible way possible.  you have become the very thing you dispise; An ABUSER.  You will come unstuck one day, I just hope its not to late.

I have taken my leave, it was forced upon me at first, but now I can see clearly and know that I am better off without you and that I deserve someone who has the respect and honesty for women that you don’t

In letting you go I’m loving myself

Peace…. Peace… Peace

funny lenormand glimpse

yesterday I was playing around with my lenormand cards and i pulled two cards that when together meant a marriage proposal (according to Titania’s accompanying book), I laughed as if!!!! Ive been single for roughly three months and have no man in sight.

Cut to the late afternoon and i’m sitting at the local juice bar chatting with the workers, when the owner says to A. ( as a joke) ‘Yeah i was thinking of proposing to you on valentines day’

i didn’t say anything but inwardly laughed at the mischeviousness and cannyness of the cards.