If only I could be numb

I woke up at 2am and vomited bright green chunks… I don’t know what of, i hope its not my stomach lining.  I have been crying my eyes out, I went up the street to get some dinner lastnight and I saw my fella drive past with his mates…. 6 Fucking weeks and no response [...]

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the sun shines regardless

Yesterday I recieved the most awesome ROAK from Fibi on Ravelry, it couldn’t have come at a better time ,as I’ve been struggling lately… I got the most awesome haul of smiggle stuff; a journal that cracked me up it says on the front ’straight is overated’  and its all higgeldy piggledy… smiggle pocket pen [...]

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drawing the dust together

I’m still sad, the aching comes and goes with a ferocious intensity.  :/ In happier news my leek seedlings have sprouted along with my rocket and beetroot seeds YAY!  Plus I’ve started to get back into mum’s crocheted blanket,  now it only has to be big enough to fit a single bed instead of a [...]

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heart sore

My heart is so sore, I have heard from my fella in a month, its obvious he doesn’t want to be with me, as he hasn’t picked up the phone, or responded to my texts, I’ve known for the past week that well its ended, but I always thought he would have the guts to [...]

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rocket to me

I just planted some organic beetroot seeds and am trying to will back to life some teeny tiny aloe vera plants , a couple of days ago I planted some nasturtium seeds and i’m really looking forward to having them pop up as i’ve read some very interesting information about them http://www.herbsarespecial.com.au/isabells_blog/nasturtium-natural-antibiotic.html  I had [...]

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witch kind

Well I won’t be seeing my fella for a while, he has started night shift again and is having to live down at his sister’s because he still hasn’t found an apartment.  I really feel for him as he must be so stressed, so I’m just going to keep myself busy.  Yesterday I started work [...]

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muesings on the man

well I haven’t heard from the fella in roughly almost three weeks, and i’ve just gone into a resigned acceptance.  I understand that he has alot on his plate, but it doesn’t take that long to make a five minute phone call or send me an email.  I’m not so much angry as dissapointed, because [...]

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seeds

Okay aparently eggplant seedlings will will pop up in approximately 7 to 14 days, weather conditions being good and all (taken from: http://www.taunton.com/finegardening/how-to/articles/how-to-grow-eggplant.aspx)  So i’ve still got a bit of a wait, the hot muggy weather has decided to cool off, but it has done the vegetables wonders, dad’s cucumbers have tripled in size within [...]

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gritty eyed

Went mad today.. Couldn’t find my keys, tore the house apart… borrowed dad’s keys to get a new set cut… fast forward 8 hours and i just found them… as mum says ‘There’s bloody pixie’s in this house!’ .  It literally drove me mad and I felt riddled with guilt, its the worst feeling.
My eye’s [...]

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Boo

Looked after Boo today   She just makes me heart sing, I’m so honured to have such a great relationship with her, sometimes it makes me so happy I want to cry and my heart aches from love.  I managed to get a black recycling tub from my sister in law and i’ve already [...]

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