I’ve screamed into my pillow, cried till i couldn’t, thrown up and journalled, yet here I am, three months on and your still popping into my mind. I have this anger that surprises me in unexpected ways, wanting to tell dangerous drivers that are tailing me as i learn to drive to ‘get fucked’. This anger comes out in short sharp bursts at other people. When really its you who need to hear the full brunt of it.
You who threw six years of great friendship down the drain and a relationship that could have blossomed, who used me and discarded me as easily as a t.v dinner, you abused not only my trust but my confidence and love. I would have been happy to have stayed friends, you could have told me you needed your own space and I would have gladley accepted what you wished, instead you faded out of my life in the most horrible way, abusing me and treating me no better than the assholes you never wanted to be.
I’m fuming because I know this is a pattern and you will keep on doing it to women you come across. I wish you would grow the fuck up and get the help you obviously need. Thier are obviously issues that are seated deep within your conciousness that you need to work through, but not using women for your own gain and ego would be a start on that process.
I’m angry because I still have all these churning emotions inside of me and I want to let them go. I wish you a life of happiness and contentment with whatever you choose to do and I wish the same for myself.
We are obviously on different paths and I gladley would have you continue on alone and still keep the bond of friendship between us. But you couldn’t handle that and severed it in the most horrible way possible. you have become the very thing you dispise; An ABUSER. You will come unstuck one day, I just hope its not to late.
I have taken my leave, it was forced upon me at first, but now I can see clearly and know that I am better off without you and that I deserve someone who has the respect and honesty for women that you don’t
In letting you go I’m loving myself
Peace…. Peace… Peace
Hi there,
Here..here…good for you!
Funny you know, i often have thoughts about my ex, and I say to myself, I wish I had never met him, my life would be very different today, I feel that i’ve wasted so many years. But then I have my 2 children to him….and i guess I just can’t regret the connection.
There is always someone who challenges us to the core, to help with our spiritual growth. Just wish that there wasn’t a “hard way” to learn. But I guess that would be boring!!
Many blessings, and I hope that your open letter helps you release your frustration.
Phoenix
Thanks Phoenix… I try to remember that we all have the divine spark
but as you can imagine that can be hard to keep in one’s mind 
Sometimes i think if we do regret the connection, we don’t move on, i don’t know if that makes sense.
This letter was a great help. I love writing… its one of the greatest tools on the planet
Thanks and blessings
Elki